Rating: FRT - Harmless really, just a few mild swear words, nothing you don't hear on television.
SUMMARY: Buffy tells Willow about a first kiss.
DISCLAIMER: The characters mentioned in this story are the property of Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, 20th Century Fox Television and the UPN Television Network. The story was written out of the love that I have for the characters (especially Giles) and for the enjoyment of the readers. No money is being made from its publication on Live Journal.
This story is, at long last, a response to a request from wide_rider. She asked for Buffy telling someone, preferably Willow, about the first time Giles kissed her. I have another story, a different person and a different first kiss, that will be posted later today.
Kiss and Tell
Willow and Tara were sitting in Willow’s dorm room. It was Friday evening and they were supposed to be studying. They had, in fact, studied for the first couple of hours, but now they were talking. Sharing important things that had happened in their lives before they met. Taking the first careful steps in a fragile new relationship.
At a pause in the conversation Tara looked at the clock. “It’s almost midnight. I should be leaving.”
“No, not yet. It’s too dangerous. Wait until Buffy gets back and have her walk you to your place.”
Tara smiled, then blushed. “It is Friday night. What if she stays with her new boyfriend?”
“Then you can stay here.” Now Willow blushed. “Here as in the room. Um,….I wasn’t suggesting, …..you could sleep in Buffy’s bed. I’m sure she wouldn’t mind.” She shrugged. “I don’t think she’ll stay out all night. Not yet. She got burned by that poopy head Parker guy. She’s being more cautious now.”
Before Tara could answer the door opened and Buffy entered the room. “Hey, Buffy.”
Buffy gave Willow a wide, unfocused, smile. “Hi,” she murmured and continued on into the bathroom.
Willow and Tara looked at each other in concern. “Is that normal?” Tara asked.
Willow shook her head. “That was weird.” She frowned. “Oh, no, maybe someone spelled some beer again. Although I thought she said she wouldn’t drink anymore. I’d better check on her.” Willow started to rise from her seat on the bed, but the bathroom door opened and Buffy drifted back into the room. “Buffy?”
“Willow.” Buffy noticed the other girl. “And Tara. Hey, guys. When did you get here?”
Willow and Tara exchanged looks again. “We’ve been here all evening,” Willow said. “You said ‘Hi’ to me when you came in a minute ago.”
Buffy just sighed and smiled, “Oh, okay.”
“Buffy, are you feeling alright?”
She flopped back onto her bed, arms wide. “I feel wonderful. This is the best night of my life. Magical. Pure magic.” She lay looking up at the ceiling, giggling softly.
Willow’s eyes widened and she looked at Tara in alarm. “Magic,” she whispered.
Tara gave Buffy a horrified look. “She’s under a spell? The caster must be very strong. I’ve never seen anyone act like that before. Who would do something like that?”
Willow scowled. “I can think of one person: Ethan Rayne. He’s a sometime friend, sometime enemy of Giles’. He would get a kick out of doing something to Buffy.” Her face hardened in resolution. “We have to find out what he did and undo it.”
The two scanned a book on spells. They found one whose purpose was to reveal other spells and pinpoint their origin. They then searched through Willows’ supplies and found the necessary herbs and crystals. Buffy ignored them; humming and smiling as she stared at the ceiling, lost in some memory.
The girls performed the spell and looked anxiously at Buffy to see the results. Nothing. Willow looked at Tara in confusion. “I don’t understand, it should have worked.” She read through the spell again. “It should have worked.”
Tara stared at Buffy, eyes slightly unfocused. “It did work.”
“Then why aren’t we seeing an image of who cast the spell?”
“Because there isn’t any spell.” When Willow started to protest Tara said, “Look at her aura. There is no sign of contamination. No spell.”
Willow concentrated. Tara was right; there wasn’t any spell. “They why is she acting like that?”
Tara shrugged. “Maybe she’s just happy about something.”
Willow shook her head. “I’ve seen Buffy happy before, and she didn’t act like this. What could have happened?”
Tara shrugged again. “Why don’t you ask her?”
Willow approached Buffy cautiously. “You’re looking mighty cheery. What’s the what?”
Buffy’s smile widened. “He kissed me.”
“He’s that good a kisser?”
“Way good. The best.” She giggled again.
Willow sank back down on her bed. “Wow, I knew you wanted to go slow with him, but you’ve been dating Riley for over two months. I thought you would have kissed him before now.”
Buffy sat up, frowning. “Who said anything about Riley?”
Willow blinked. “Riley? The guy you left with five hours ago? Who else would we be talking about?”
Buffy’s expression turned dreamy. “Giles.” She flopped back on the bed.
Willow’s mouth dropped open and she stared at Tara in astonishment. Tara looked intrigued. “Giles?” the girls said in unison.
“Yeah,” Buffy sighed.
“But,” Willow began, confused, “you went out on a date with Riley. What’s with the Giles kissage? And why? You’ve never said anything about wanting to kiss Giles. Not that there’s anything wrong with wanting to kiss Giles. I used to have a big crush on him back in 10th grade.” Willow noticed that Tara and Buffy were both staring at her. She paused, blushed, then continued to babble. “Not that I ever thought about smoochies with him. Just basic crushage, you know, vague day dreams. Stuff like that. I admired his mind.”
Buffy sat up again and grinned. “Right, his mind. And his butt in those tweed slacks.”
Willow smiled at the memory. “Yeah, the tweed. And the suspenders. He looked so cute when he wore the suspenders, especially the red ones.”
Buffy’s smile turned dreamy too. “Oh, yeah. You don’t know how many times I wanted to grab those when we were training. Pull him to me and kiss the living daylights out of him.” She giggled again. “The sweater was a pretty good substitute. Nice and baggy. Plenty of material to get a hold of.”
Willow and Buffy exchanged smiles. Willow looked away, straight into Tara’s incredulous eyes. She blushed again. “What? I was 16. Crushes are normal for 16 year olds.” She frowned back at Buffy. “Wait a minute, what about Riley? You left with him. What happened? And I haven’t seen Giles in suspenders since high school. If you had the hots for him then, why wait until now?”
“Duh. High school? It would have made him feel like a pervert. Plus, I knew how I felt, but I didn’t know about him. I kinda thought, maybe, after the test, cause of the way he acted that night, but he never said anything and Angel was still around, and I was confused by how I felt. I mean, I loved Angel, right? But suddenly I was having these fuzzy feelings for Giles. Especially after I could read minds.”
“That’s when you found out how he felt?”
“No. I could hardly read his thoughts at all. Just the surface ones, when he was so worried about me. Mom, on the other hand, her mind was an open book. Remember the band candy?”
“Yeah, that’s when they were acting weird, hanging all over each other and kissing.”
Buffy shot Willow a look.
“Oh, my god! It was more than just kissing?” She looked shocked.
Buffy nodded. “Twice. On the hood of a police car in the middle of downtown.”
“Very wow. It really freaked me out cause a couple of days later, after I couldn’t read minds anymore, I had a dream that it had been me. And I liked it, a lot. That made me feel strange around him, and made me cling tighter to Angel. Plus I felt guilty, having sent Angel to that Hell dimension. So I didn’t let myself think about Giles that way, not until a couple of months ago. Then when I finally worked up the courage to go talk to him that bitca Olivia was there prancing around in his shirt calling him Ripper. Made me mad.”
Willow stared at her, enlightenment sweeping over her face. “That’s why….”
Buffy nodded, blushing. “Parker.”
“Duh. Anyway, she was there and I thought I had lost my chance. I mean, why would he want to be with a teenager if he could have a jet-set model? Even after Parker turned out to be such a bastard I didn’t think about going to talk to him. Then when the Gentlemen were here and we went to see Giles, she was still there, so I thought they were living together.”
“Yeah, me too. I was glad Giles had someone, that he wasn’t alone.” Willow put on her resolve face. “You’re stalling. I want to know how you left with Riley and came home all floaty from Giles kissage. Spill.”
“Riley picked me up and we went to the movies. Which, by the way, was his idea. He didn’t ask me what I wanted to do, or even what movie I would like to see. He had our date all planned, like I would be happy to do whatever he wanted to do. It wasn’t the first time, but like all the other times I just let it go. The movie was one I wanted to see, but it would have been nice to be asked first, ya know?”
The other girls nodded.
“So, the movie. Then after he decided we would go to the Espresso Pump and talk. I was okay with that cause I wanted to get a few things straight with him too. We sit down and before I have a chance to say what I want, he orders for me. Got me a decaf, saying that caffeine was bad for me that late at night. Can you believe that?”
Willow blinked. “Well, if it was me, yeah. But you’re up half the night anyway with patrol and all.”
“Right, and when I reminded him of that, he said that I didn’t have to patrol anymore. That he and his commando squad would take care of everything.”
Willow gasped, shocked.
“Right. He patted my hand, like I was some helpless little girl. His whole attitude was ‘don’t worry, let the men handle it’. I was so angry that I couldn’t say anything. He was droning on and on about how his squad would clean up Sunnydale and then he would get out of the Army and we would get married and go back to his family’s farm in Iowa.”
Buffy grimaced, her hands clenched in remembered anger. “ I kept trying to say something, but he ignored it, too busy planning our future to pay any attention to me. Then the lights dimmed and the manager walked over to one end of the room carrying a stool and a mic stand. He said that since it was the first Saturday of the month it was open mic night and that the first person up was a local favorite. I almost fell off my chair when Giles walked out from the back carrying a guitar.”
“Riley tried to keep talking, but several people around us gave him dirty looks, and one person actually told him to shut up. Giles started singing, some song about watching someone move. It was nice, and I was surprised at what a good singer he is.”
Willow’s face turned dreamy again. “Yeah, uber good.” Tara nodded, a little dreamy herself.
“While he was singing that song he looked up and saw me sitting there with Riley. The next song he sang was that one by Sting, when he was still with that group.” When the other girls looked blank she said, “You know, ‘Every Breath You Take’, the song about the guy watching the girl. He looked straight at me the whole time.” Buffy smiled.
“When he got to the line, ‘Oh, can’t you see, you belong to me’, I could see it in his eyes. That he felt the same way I did. When the song was over and everyone was applauding, Riley made some dumb remark about that was the perfect song for a Watcher to sing. He didn’t get the subtext at all. Anyway, then Giles said he was doing one more song and that he was dedicating it to me. I mean, he didn’t point me out or anything, just said it was for Buffy. That got Riley’s attention, but what was even better was the song.” Buffy started giggling again.
“What was it?”
“It was a song called ‘Man Smart, Woman Smarter’. I thought Riley was going to blow a fuse. His face turned red and he started sputtering. It was so funny. Anyway, when the song was over Giles got up, walked over, and held out his hand to me. He said that we needed to talk and asked me to come home with him. He totally ignored Riley, like he wasn’t even there.”
Willow nodded. “Being Alpha male and claiming his territory.” When Buffy looked surprised Willow shrugged. "I pay attention in psychology class. What did Riley do?”
“He stood up and said something about how I was with him and that anything Giles had to say he could say to both of us right there. I grabbed his arm and pulled him outside. I then told him that although he was a nice guy, he wasn’t MY nice guy and that it would be better if we didn’t date anymore. I also told him that he and his commando buddies better not get in my way when I was on patrol. That they should just leave town and leave the demon hunting to the professionals; me and Giles.”
“What did Giles do?”
“He stood there smiling. Riley laughed, pointed at Giles and said ‘He’s a professional?’. Giles kept smiling, but it changed into that Ripper smile. Riley stopped laughing and started backing away. I told him it wasn’t nice to piss off a man who had been fighting demons longer than he had been alive. Then Giles nodded over to where his car was parked and asked me if I was ready to go. I looked back as we drove away and Riley was still standing there, mouth open, looking at us in shock.”
“We didn’t talk on the way back to his place. He opened the door, we walked in, he closed it and said ‘Buffy,’ but that’s when I grabbed his sweater and kissed him.” Buffy stopped talking. Her hand went to her lips and she caressed them, smiling widely.
“He didn’t respond for a couple of seconds, but when he did. Wow! Better than Angel, better than Riley, much better than Parker. Better than all three combined. There aren’t any words. Just, wow.” Buffy focused on Willow.
“I now know the difference between men and boys. For a boy a kiss is just something that leads to sex. For a man a kiss is something all on it’s own. It was like the world could be ending but for Giles the most important thing he could be doing right then was kiss me.” Buffy shook her head in frustration. “I know I’m not explaining it right. There really aren’t any words.”
Willow went over and hugged Buffy. “That’s not the difference between men and boys. That’s the difference between sex and love. I’m glad you’ve found it. It’s the best feeling in the world.” She smiled over at Tara, who blushed and smiled back.
Buffy hugged her back. “Thanks Willow.”
Tara cleared her throat. “It’s getting late. I think I’ll go back to my apartment now.”
Buffy jumped up. “I’ll walk you home. Just give me a couple of minutes.” She rushed into the bathroom.
Willow smiled. “That’s Buffy for subtle. She’s giving us some alone time.” Tara nodded. The two stood and moved towards each other, leaning in for a gentle kiss.
When Buffy emerged from the bathroom, Tara was waiting by the door, backpack in hand. She gave a little wave. “Night, Willow, see you tomorrow.”
Tara and Buffy left. Willow laid back on her bed, thinking over the events of the past evening. The door opened. Willow was surprised to see Buffy stick her head back in.
“Don’t wait up. Giles didn’t want to do more on our first date, but, hey, it’s after midnight, so this would be second date. Right?” She closed the door.
Willow laughed. She would be willing to bet that Giles was awake and waiting for Buffy to come back. Too bad it was too late to call Xander and let him know that she had won their bet. She would have to wait until morning to share the good news.